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Satan and Men. Not that there's Much Difference. [19 Dec 2011|02:43am]
Just battled the spawn of Satan into his bed; emotional screams of ‘Want mummy’s bed!’ and ‘You are my Sunshine’ sung on repeat before silence ensued. Even then he’ll probably pop up at the door any minute to watch ‘Emodale’ with me.

I finally get time to mull over my thoughts now, but my brains so crammed with boy troubles that I need to start a diary to try make any sense of them. I feel like a teenager again. I’m supposed to be a strong, independent single mum, but instead I’m still suffocating with crushes and heart bruises over stupid boys. Maybe some things just never change. Maybe I’ll be 80 and still getting butterflies over the wrinkly old man stinking of urine in the corner of the old folks home.
Two things I’ve learned this week. Firstly, I have a sell-by date of a year and three quarters. If, on the off chance, I do manage to maintain a relationship for this hideous amount of time, this is the approximate end date for the relationship; the moment the boy beside me looks at me and decides he’s had enough. Secondly, I fancy any boy (within reason!) that does not show attraction back to me. Take my friend, for instance, not physically my type in any which way but his lack of interest in me has me desperately trying to get him to look at me in a way other than a friend. The very thing I strive against with every male friend I have. I know that if he did starting liking me in that way though, the angst and want would be gone. He'd become just another male friend who got on my nerves. I feel I may have a mild psychological problem in this regard.

Anyway, I'll hopefully start getting into this Livejournal thing a bit more. I'm currently writing to no one...and I'm not sure if that's what I want yet or not. Probably best to get involved a bit more I suppose! :)

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Hello [15 Dec 2011|02:43am]
I made this journal when I was 15. I am now 23.
While on the hunt for some Mcfly Slash, I stumbled across LiveJournal again, and was surprised that my old log in worked. I was even more surprised at what an idiot I was at 15. Having just started a new diary, I have decided to just bin all the old posts on here and post my new diary on here instead. That way, when this computer inevitably breaks from my general accident prone ways, I won't lose it all.

I sadly can't change my username, which is fairly upsetting as born2teaze is one of the lamest usernames I've seen...and it just so happened to be what I named myself many moons ago. I hate 15 year old me.


I also genuienly can't remember how to work this thing for shit, so it will probably take me some time to work it all out.

I have a two year old son. I am single, but his father and I remain on good terms and share custody. I have just come out of a relationship of a year and three quarters from a boy who dumped me without bothering to inform me he had. I am back in first year of University - my third attempt! And I am currently loving life, stocking up on my boy crushes and alcohol binging whenever I get the chance. Think that's all you really need to know for now :)

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